Positive

I had gone home before shipping out to Hawaii. I'd spent a couple of days at home. I fielded questions about this new man in my life. I spoke of him as my husband, my husband this and my husband that. My mother one day got upset and said "He has a name".

Yes he did have a name but using I felt made this situation too casual. I needed to remember that he was my husband and not just some guy who gave me heart and was anxiously waiting for me. Was I trying to convince myself or remind myself that he was my husband. I remember thinking no one can still think of me as a child, I'm grown cause I have a husband.

I left my family and flew to Hawaii. There were so many permanent decisions i had made in the past 9 months, I had left home, gotten married, and now was going to Hawaii to be stationed on a ship. I arrived in Hawaii and made it to the base. I checked in and as proudly announced that I had married while on  leave and needed to fill out paperwork for duel military. This paperwork was important to try to get stationed together and get housing. I showed my marriage certificate. I was validating everything that had happened.

My ship was not in port at the time so I had to wait for it to return. I started a routine of going to work doing laundry and calling. we were on a 5 hour time difference so sometimes it was difficult. We spoke often about how we missed each other and when he would make it down here.  I made friends and started to get to know Hawaii. Went down to beaches in Waikiki, snorkeling in Hanauma  Bay, clubbing in Ala Moana.

I wasn't feeling well one day and went to base clinic. They drew blood for some tests and told me the results would be ready in about 1 hour. In the meantime I went and had lunch. I returned to get my results. The lady at the lab printed out the results and then pointed out one test at the bottom " your pregnancy test came out positive".